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Wonderful weekend with my cousin Sarah AKA. my future roomie in London. Friday night I got off work early, came home and drank my face off with her & on Saturday there was a family get-together at my aunt's place out on the lake. We drank all day in the sun and went on two boat rides with my uncle, which was very nice - it's been a long time since I've been on a boat, but I love being on the water.

It was sad to see Sarah leave today, but I know in another 16 days we'll spend lots of time together. In the meantime, I don't work until 3 in the afternoon tomorrow, so I'm thinking beers & Halo are in order for tonight (so much for drying up, huh?) It's been too long since I've paid my Xbox Live friends a visit and I realized earlier today that my Halo skills are lacking.

Here's also to hoping that bomberman61 gets a Gold membership on Live so we can play online together before I move! Also, warm fuzzies to subu who had arrived safe & sound in New York yesterday; hope you're having a blast so far!

The good news is, I am moving as of September 1. I just put in my two weeks today at the call centre and will officially be done as of August 25. That way it gives me a full week to pack & say goodbye to the people who matter, who are few and far between right now. I will miss my parents the most, of course, but I will especially miss my best friend Jennesse. She's always been there for me, but nowhere near as much as this summer. She spent my entire holidays off from work with me during and after my birthday, when not one other person was interested in showing up for my August 8 bash downtown. It's definitely going to be hard leaving her behind in such a shit hole of a town, but I know she'll visit when she can. I know that this will be good for me, no matter how scared and nervous I am right now, so I'm sucking it up and diving in blind. I don't even have a job yet, which is a little nerve-racking since I don't have a whole lot of money saved up, but I figure it'll be good for me to struggle for once in my life and learn to somehow pull myself out of a hard situation. Here's to a new beginning!

On a side note, my 21st birthday went pretty well. As the clock struck midnight on August 5, I sighed a breath of relief. God blessed me with another tough (but exciting) year and it made me thankful that I am still here.

And if anyone was wondering how things are going with the boy from Indiana, I am head over heels to put it simply. We talk about the future and what it may have in store for us and I have never ever been happier. My parents found out about him not too long ago (just before my birthday) through one of my aunt's that called my Mom up telling her that my Facebook status mentioned being "dangerously in love". I feel bad that I kept it from them for so long, since it's been six months now, but they are ecstatic for me nonetheless. I felt like they wouldn't understand; back in the day when they got married there was no such thing as finding a man online. This one crept up on me when I wasn't even looking and so far it's been the best surprise life has ever thrown me. We have plans to meet in Windsor over his spring break in 2010 if not sooner (for any reason) and I dream of that day every day, awake or asleep. Sometimes I wish that I could've met him in person starting out, but then I remember how beautifully things are coming along. I can appreciate the fact that I am getting to know him on a more emotional level before physically meeting him. I truly feel that he is my soulmate, but even though it's early in, I feel like without him in my life a piece of me would be missing - without him, I just could not be whole. He puts a smile on my face on the darkest and hardest of days; he is my entire world and I am eternally thankful for him.

I really need to stop neglecting my LJ - what a release! I hope you all are doing as well as I am. =)

GAH! Livejournal! I've been so out of the loop for four months - it's ridiculous! I'm appreciative of the fact that a lot of my favourite bloggers haven't deleted me just yet. I am alive, I'm still kickin', and it's good to be back & bookmarked. I haven't gone computerless by any means, I've just been still busy working full time and nothing is new as usual. Time is flying by and I still can't believe it's mid-April already. I hope everyone had a fantastic New Year, Valentine's Day, spring break, and Easter! =)

I'm faced with a difficult dilemma once more and this time it doesn't involve school or work (surprise, surprise!) About three days ago when I came home late from work, my Mom approached me and asked me if I'd be interested in living with my cousin in London, ON for a year. This was completely out of the blue! Turns out my other cousin who was living with her originally, who is currently attending Fanshawe College, plans on leaving at the end of August to live with three of her close friends. My cousin, Sarah, wants to keep her beautiful apartment so badly, but can't find anyone who is interested in moving in. The rent is $400/month, excluding only cable and internet, which is cheap considering London is a large city and rent should be through the roof. I just wish this wouldn't have been such a last minute request of me; there are so many things I need to think about!

A) I need to arrange to have a steady, decent paying full time job like the one I have now in order to live already lined up and waiting for me upon my arrival.
B) I have to take into consideration travelling to London whenever a job interview arises (where an interview over the phone would not be applicable), which is kind of four hours out of the way. Working full time at the moment doesn't make this an easy task considering my days off usually fall on weekends.
C) My OSAP loan repayments are going to start up again in June.
D) I'm not entirely familiar with the city and how it operates, but I'm positive my cousin can show me the ropes. The idea of no one knowing who I am in a city so far away from Peterborough is appealing to me on some level, but also leaving my lifelong friends behind is going to be difficult for me.
E) My parents are apprehensive and have their hearts set on me returning to school, of course. I really want to steer clear of having to take on another student loan and feeling pressured into a program that I am not 100% sure is best for me just to receive funding to live.
F) I will have nothing financially to fall back on in case of emergency. My parents have given me fair warning that, should I struggle for even a few weeks, I cannot rely on them to wire me money temporarily as my Mom currently is unemployed and they're barely making ends meet as it is.
G) I'm just downright terrified I will crash and burn. I suppose that is what life is all about and I have to learn somehow. It's about time I leftthe nest and experience the real world for what it really is.

On the upside, my cousin and I would have incredible fucking parties, we get along great, I trust her endlessly, and my family has never steered me wrong. It's an opportunity I don't want to say no to just in case I regret it later when I'm still sitting at ICT in the fall wondering what stopped me. Is it a logical decision at this point? Maybe not so much, as I haven't saved a cent and it's going to be excruciating doing so. Would it be worth it? When it comes down to self-empowerment and independence, I think the decision that I have to make is a clear sign (maybe even a blessing in disguise). I've been looking for a change similar to this, I just never expected it to be a change that would lead me four hours southwest. I always thought my first move would be relatively close to home and I guess Oshawa was my first chance. London could be so good for me and I'll never know if I don't dive in!

Feedback on this situation would be greatly appreciated. I've been asking family members, close friends and coworkers what they all think of the task at hand and whether or not they think I can make it. I want honest opinions from the people who know me best as well as a general view from outside sources. I'm sorry again that I haven't been around, but I plan on keeping this journal for as long as it takes especially at a time like this.

By the way, since Twitter is the newest fad, Tweet me! I am keegs58. =)

... I am truly a gaming nerd. Xbox Live has been down for the past two nights in a row and I find myself going through slight withdrawal. I never thought I'd get to this point, but most of all I just miss chillin' after a long day at work, chatting and playing some Halo with my hilarious American friends online. Honestly, there's nothing else better to do at this time of night.

Sigh.. if it's not back up tomorrow night, I'm going to shit a brick!

Well, well, well - I'm back again finally! I can't believe a new school year is just around the corner; in so many ways it is depressing watching my friends get ready to hit the books for another year, but I can only envy them so much. At least I can prolong all of the stress that I associate with journalism until the spring semester. I've never missed a beat when it comes to starting school at the beginning of September, so a part of me feels utterly lost. I almost feel as though I am being left behind, but as much as I hated school while I was in Oshawa, inside I feel like I have always been cut out for academics. I guess while my friends continue working towards their diplomas/degrees, I will be stuck at my lousy job working towards saving money for an undecided luxury and, of course, to pay for the two courses I am redoing. I emailed my student liasion early tonight asking about registration deadlines, laptop distribution (oh, how I miss my Macbook!), etc. - I'm very out of the loop so I want to find out as soon as possible. I'm hoping she will email me back rather than try to call; I work six days a week so it's rare that I'll be home to catch her call. Anyway, I'm playing everything by year and trying not to count my eggs before they're hatched, I just figure I might as well get the details and decide what to do with them from there.

Speaking of work, there's nothing more I can say that will stress the fact further that I have to drag myself in each day. Customer service as a whole is becoming easier for me, and being walked all over by Rogers Wireless customers throughout Canada has become routine and expected. You wouldn't believe how many penny-pinchers really do walk this planet, and if I told you the number of calls I receive a day with people nagging me to credit them back the tax on top of an already teeny tiny credit, you probably wouldn't believe me. It is sickening how much time people have on their hands to be able to call me up to bitch and moan over such insignificant details - as far as I'm concerned, if you call in too often, you shouldn't even own a cell phone. If you can't keep track of your minutes, how many long distance numbers you call a month, how many text messages you send a month and so on, cancel the fucking line because you are too irresponsible to be damaging your credit this badly. I'm not even going to start in on this subject; my face is already flush from thinking about it.

So, my social life ain't what it used to be. I've gotten used to the habit of working late, making an attempt to meet my friends at the bar sober, dealing with their drunkness, and leaving the bar still sober. I haven't actuallly planned a night out, sat with friends predrinking, and then went out hammered at 10:30 in such a long time, and frankly I'm tired of it. My days off are usually mid-week when everyone works the next morning and doesn't want to go out the night before, so I spend time with my currently unemployed friends during the day instead, being unproductive and consuming way too many Tim Hortons iced cappucinos. Nowadays I'd rather come home from work, have a beer or five and play Halo with my online friends. As nerdy as that sounds, I enjoy it, and no one can tell me otherwise.

BREAKING NEWS: I cut off 14 inches of hair last Wednesday! My hair is still just below my shoulders, a perfect length I think, and my head feels so much lighter. I haven't gone this short since I was 11, so it is definitely a drastic change. For those of you who didn't know before, my hair was down to my ass before I went in for this "trim" last week, which then turned into a cut and style. I had layers put in, the shortest being at my chin, and also some sweeping bangs. If I ever get around to taking pictures of myself (which I've neglected for I don't know how long), I will certainly post for all to see. It's a playful cut and I'm loving it so far, but it's still taking time to hit me. When I shower I still go to use an entire handful of shampoo and conditioner thinking I'm lathering my long mane of hair, and before I could never find a towel wide enough to wrap up all of my hair post-shower without excessive dripping - this cut makes me feel free now! I always considered my hair to be somewhat of a security blanket, but I donated the 14 inches to be made into a wig for a cancer patient, so I know someone out there will be getting a lot better use out of it than I ever would. I hope it makes a drastic difference in someone's life - just as drastic as it was for me when I had it chopped off.

I'm off to bum around for the remainder of my Saturday night - weird, I know. Hope everyone is doing well! =)

I'm still alive and kickin' - just been working a lot (all 3-midnight shifts - bleck), so I typically go to bed into the wee hours of the morning and rise around 1 or 2 only to get ready and head straight back to work. I've had the past couple of days off, but starting tomorrow I work seven days straight on midnights. I started on the phones last Tuesday; the first day was so nerve-racking and I accidentally hung up on six people. I now have the hang of it and I think work is a bore each and every day - a lot of people have the same issues so it gets kind of repetitive. Fuck my life. It's great money though, right? Yeah, that's what I keep telling myself when I start feeling down about how boring my life is getting. Catching up with my rowdy, party animal friends late on Saturday nights at the bar isn't necessarily my forte, but it will work until I gain more senority in the centre.

I'm actually headed out to the bar tonight to celebrate a friend's birthday. Since Saturday night stunk I figure I'll make it up tonight. I have seven hours of training tomorrow on the iPhone (which our wireless company released on Friday), so that's seven hours I don't have to spend on the phones listening to stupid people bitch and moan. I'm thinkin' even if I'm hungover things could be a lot worse.

When I get home late at night after working until midnight I stay up until 5 or 6 a.m. playing Halo with my sweet friends online. I've gotten a few of their cell numbers lately so we text during the day - I'm so happy I met the few that I'm in constant contact with because they're so chill. If only I knew them in real life! I know most of you must think I'm such a nerd, but I love meeting new people regardless of how, and deep down I genuinely believe people are good. Maybe I trust a little too easily, but those that I trust with my cell phone number I feel comfortable with.

I thought I'd give you guys a short update before I head out. I hope everyone is doing fabulously and, again, I apologize for not being around nearly enough. Please don't delete me because I've been inactive lately - I'm still reading and commenting when I can. <3

This was by far the shortest weekend of life and it had everything to do with getting off of work at midnight on Friday. The whole training 4-midnight thing last week killed me; I'm typically a night owl anyway, but it felt like I didn't have a life anymore during those first five days. I would come home late, stay up even later unwinding, sleep in until noon or 1, then get ready and head off to work once again. My trainer talked to her boss on Friday and got our shifts changed to 1-9 for the next couple of weeks which is going to be fantastic. Sure, I will miss out on the days, but the important thing is I won't miss out on the nights. Also, transportation-wise it just all makes more sense. I'm thrilled about it.

Saturday night consisted of intense alcohol intake. My friend, Sam, threw a bonfire/pool/beer pong party at her house for my friend John's 20th birthday and it had a great turn out - I just wish it wouldn't have ended so early.

I'm stoked to finally get paid on Friday. I have a late cell phone bill to pay and I'm in dire need of some bra shopping. Yes, it's a guilty pleasure, but I haven't done it in so long so I think I'm due. There's nothing better than bra and panty shopping in my books; I enjoy it so much more than clothes or gift shopping.

Father's Day went well today. I feel kind of bad that I didn't help out more with the meals, but I spent a good part of the day recovering you could say (it's not that I was hungover, but the day after a long night of drinking just leaves me feeling so out of it.) My Dad enjoyed his gifts and we had an evening meal fit for a king. Words cannot describe how much I appreciate my Dad and everything he's ever done for me. He's always been on my side when my Mom and I butt heads (which is often) and I've always been a daddy's girl in every sense of the word. Both of my parents are my ultimate role models and I love them both dearly, just sometimes in different ways. I could never thank them enough, no matter what holiday arises in their honour.

I apologize for not posting nearly enough lately, but during the week it's strictly work and sleep. Please note that I am constantly on here reading my friend's list though and I will continue to drop comments at random. I truly love my LJ friends and reading about your lives, so no matter how long I go without posting I am always paying attention - this can be assured. =)

.. I just thought I'd say what's up? Waiting for my friend right now who is in the shower, so I'm chillin' in her room browsin' on her Internetz. =)

Today wasn't the most productive of days. I woke up late, did my laundry for tonight and then indulged in countless hours of sexbox. I went up a whole rank in Halo and played Guitar Hero III for a bit, which I haven't played in a while. I still love pwning people on Live in that game, too. Getting better at medium every time I put it in, so hopefully in the near future I can move up to hard. Haha, geek talk I know, and I apologize.

I'm really not looking forward to going back to school on Monday. Usually I skip Monday's Canadian history class because a) I hate it, and b) I don't care about it anymore, but I have to be there in the morning for the final test. I don't even know why we're in history; this entire semester there hasn't been one reference to journalism or anything even close to it. I'm pissed that I was forced to take a course that does not even apply to the career path I have chosen - the school could have at least let us pick our own elective so we'd be interested and have a chance at doing well. We share this history class with half pre-media students. They learn a bit about multimedia design, journalism and advertising; a one-year course that will help to decide what to major in, basically. All of the pre-media kids take it so seriously, but us journalism kids could care less as we sit on our laptops class after class ignoring our prof. Thank God it's almost over!

Anywho, I should be signing off. Sam and I are about to head over to Amber's to start predrinking before we go to the bar early - should be a fun night. I'll have a drink for all of you!